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"AND he was wearing an olive green polyester suit!!" [01 Jan 2005|02:29pm]
[ mood | Reflective ]

Well, this update was originally going to take place in my new journal, but I figured I'd split it up. Since everyone seems to be doing this '2004 Reflection' thing, I guess I'll just follow right along. This won't be incredibly long though, seeing as I have other things I need to do today.

Overall 2004 was one of the more stressful years that I've lived through. I managed to survive Northside College Preparatory Highschool for the fourth and final year, emerging from it with I believe a 3.2 GPA. I could have done better, but I did what was comfortable, and that's all I expected from myself. I got rejected from UIC and Loyola but was delighted to be accepted at DePaul. I did a lot of growing in 2004 - Made some new friends (Ali, Marissa), got closer to other friends (Vicky, Alex), and decided that others just weren't worth my time (no need to mention them here). I also confronted my mother about her drinking problem, which is slowly but surely getting better. Marcelo and I won the battle against his parents and their lack of understanding what he wanted, and he and I now live happily together, after working out some of our own problems. The basement that was supposed to be done for my 8th grade graduation has been started and as of right this minute is extremely near it's completion. I got my lip pierced. I successfully completed my first trimester of college with a 3.0 and successfully gained the respect of my English teacher. I saw Metallica in a kickass concert. I began volunteering at PAWS Chicago, aqcuiring three wonderful kittens and teaching me about how to raise infant animals. I bought a now 3-month old Border Collie puppy and named him Christian. My Christmas was far better than last years, and I have nothing but the brightest hope for this year's Christmas.

So, with 2004 behind me and 2005 ahead, I'm retiring this journal. My new journal can be found here:


Don't forget to add me to your friends list!! I will add you accordingly!


12 pieces of mind || speak the truth

And now a moment of Zen... [31 Dec 2004|07:00pm]
[ mood | calm ]

You know, there are people in this world who are complete and utter idiots. Not in the sense that they didn't go to school or aren't at the top of some kind of career ladder, but because they just don't understand how to be fully functional human beings. It is those types of people that usually elicit entries upon entries of rants and disbelief. But now, I am having an epiphany. I DO believe in idiots. There really are people out there who have deep-seated issues who only find pleasure in insulting others in the most childish ways, such as commenting on people's ethnicities, sexualities or well-paying career choices.

It is at this point, 7:03pm on December 31, 2004, going into a brand new year that I can truly say that I have something to be thankful for. I am thankful that I am not one of these people. Moreso, I am thankful that I am not often exposed to these types of people, as my personality, intelligence level, human soul as well as my education (if you want to consider that) have made it so that I don't have to deal with them, and it will continue on much in the same manner.

And speaking of the new year, I can without a shadow of doubt say that in 2005 (and the remainder of 2004) that I will no longer lower myself to the level of these types of people, nor will I put myself in a position to deal with them. Time is far too valuable to me to waste it arguing with children who pretend to be adults.

I am above and beyond them. I know that, and I don't need to prove it to anyone.

Happy New Year everyone! Kiwi_Mistress will shortly be retiring and a new journal shall be rested upon your friends page. But one step at a time.

2 pieces of mind || speak the truth

Whatever suits you [31 Dec 2004|05:29pm]
[ mood | amused ]

1) Pick your month
2) Italics anything that does NOT apply to you.
3) Bold the four things that best describe you.
4) Copy in your own journal, with all twelve months under a lj cut.


Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hard-working. High spirited. Spendthrift.

The OthersCollapse )

1 piece of mind || speak the truth

"Man I hate my stupid monkey blood." [30 Dec 2004|06:47pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

Well another Christmas has come and gone, and I must say I'm quite pleased with the way it all turned out this year. There is naturally a lot to talk about, so I'll go chronologically.


Christmas Eve this year was probably more stressful than it's ever been. Every year before this year I have woken up Christmas Eve morning to find the house completely cleaned and festively decorated. Not so this time. Part of the morning was spent helping to clean the last few things that needed to be done as well as some wrapping (as mentioned in my previous entry), and then it was time to get ready. I wore the red and black skirt I intended to wear last year and it fit quite comfortably along with a black sweater from Old Navy. I also managed to get my contacts in, put some makeup on, and do something with my hair, meaning that I actually got dressed up this year. That was exciting, in a way.

In the beautifying processCollapse )

But yes, Marcelo and I headed to church at 5:30 and I was relieved to see that there were others there as well. Who showed? Angela, Jackie, Lizzy and Laura. Strange that there would be no sign of Jeremy OR Alex. Hmmm.... Well, Alex was out of town so that was alright. Mass was a distaster. It was terrible. The traiditon is that a few Christmas carols are sung about 10 minutes before the mass begins. Janet announced that the first carol would be Hark the Harold Angels Sing, but the random incompetent pianist (or should I say KEYBOARDIST) bitch started playing Angels We Have Heard on High, confusing the hell out of everyone. None of us sang it. The next few went slightly better, though the processional hymn was TERRIBLE, and this is what pissed me off about it.

You would think that the keyboardist would have slowed down to match our tempo, considering that there were about 8 of us and one of her. But no, no, of course not. The bitch just kept speeding along, completely uncaring of what was going on around her. Even Father Mike was singing along with us at our pace, and if she didn't respect us as singers, she should have respected Father Mike and the pace at which HE was going. But no. No. She's an idiot.

The rest of the mass proceeded in much the same way, though it did get progressively better, granted not by much. After the mass Marcelo, Angela and I felt the need to apologize to people for our miserable performance. We also felt the need to make fun of Kathy for making us spontaneously leave the microphone in the middle of singing Silent Night in order to take communion. Excuse me, but it's the minister's JOB to STAND THERE AND WAIT FOR US TO FINISH THE DAMN SONG!!! "COME ON!!! COME ON!!!!" LoL, ah, it's a good thing we have a sense of humor....

We gave Angela a ride home from church and when we got to my house it was nice to see that some people were already there. Scott and Debbie, Uncle Billy, and Marcelo's parents were already there. Having his parents here was a little weird because neither of us really knew what to say to them. They didn't know anyone, and though they were introduced, they still didn't have much conversation. But it was fine. We got some gifts from them which were actually not too bad. I got a t-shirt from Argentina, some of what me and Marcelo have dubbed sock moccassinsCollapse ), and some jewelry. Others that showed up were Marilyn, her husband Jim (the one who had a stroke thus putting us into the situation with Kitty) and Maggie. Steve also showed up at 8:00 as scheduled. It was a little strange with him being here, considering that he and I haven't really talked since the beginning of Junior year. He mostly talked to Marcelo about wrestling and other things that confused me, which was fine.

Around 9:30 Jennifer, Angela and Monique showed up, which made me very happy. I wasn't sure whether or not Monique would be able to make it due to her work schedule and such, but she did. Angela and I drank eggnog and ate shrimp as we have every year since I can remember, and since the basement is nice and cleaned out we were able to resume our yearly ritual of hanging out there. We brought down my tape recorder with the tape of FAGS100 (a radio show Monique and I had when we were 12) and got a kick out of it. We also listened to tapes of us singing Spice Girls and Moffatt songs, as we always did when we were younger. It was a really good time. Angela had to leave around 11:15 because she was playing flute at Midnight Mass (even though she sang at 6:00 - What a trooper!... Or an idiot... :oP), and Jennifer went home as well, so Monique, Marcelo and I sat in the living room and watched the tape I found of the Annie play. ::Sigh:: Memories... In all objective honesty, considering that about 90% of the cast were ages 13 and younger, it was a fantastic show. It was better than some highschool productions I've seen. We did a damn good job.

After the tape finished Monique left and Marcelo and I went to sleep, waiting for Santa to come and bring wonderful presents for everyone:oP But before I go on explaining that joyous morning, I'll put up the rest of the Christmas Eve pictures!
My favorite day of the yearCollapse )


Well the tradition of opening gifts on Christmas morning morphed this year into opening gifts on Christmas afternoon. Marcelo and I didn't get up until about 11:15, and by the time Caitlyn woke up and things got started it was after Noon. But it didn't matter, because the tree was quite the sight!
OoOo..Collapse )

Marcelo opened his "Santa gifts" first and was quite pleased with them, especially UT2004. Caitlyn and I did the same, and I made out with some very nice things including '90s Trivial Pursuit as well as a brand new printer/copier/scanner. That makes me happy. After that we all opened gifts from each other, which were also nice. Marcelo loved his claddagh which is currently being resized as well as his clothes from penny-arcade and elsewhere. He was also excited about his soon-to-arrive Bally's membership, as am I, because we can finally go to the gym together. Caitlyn got me a really pretty blown glass rose. I'm not taking it out of the box until we move downstairs, because I'm not risking it breaking. And what did Marcelo get me?

He got us reservations at the Holiday Inn hotel, one block from the Sears Tower, for not one night, but TWO!! I'M SO EXCITED!!! All I wanted was to be able to spend time with him to just talk and play games and such, and I couldn't have imagined a better way to do it!! This gift was amazing!! We're going next weekend from the 7th to the 9th, and in that time we'll walk around downtown, window shop a bit, eat at a nice restaurant, order some pizza, play some games, watch some movies, and above all - Eat Cheetos and Jewel brand sandwich cookies. Oh yes. I love him. My gift totally owns yours!! :oP

But yes, after the festivities finished at home everyone got dressed and headed to Auntie's house. I was much relieved to have gotten a cute sweater to wear, as I hadn't planned out an outfit before that. Awww.....Collapse )
On the way out the door I was pleasantly surprised to see that it had been snowing!! There was no snow for Christmas Eve but I didn't have a green Christmas!! That made me quite happy, and naturally I took pictures.

Let it snow!Collapse )

At Auntie's the appetizer was ravioli, which I haven't had in God knows how long, so that was excellent. The main course - Ham with mashed potatoes, sweet potatoes, broccoli and apple sauce. Very, very good, as always. We opened gifts after we ate, during which time Marcelo's gift and my mom's gift got mixed up, so when Marcelo opened his box he found a fuzzy purple robe. And he was being so nice about it :o) I also got a purple robe, darker than my mom's. I've never had a robe before, so it was a good thing to get.

As we were finishing opening up gifts, Uncle Joe's kids and their kids all decided to drop by, which was fabulous! All of my little cousins have gotten SO big since I last saw them! Joey is 9 now, Anthony is 6!!, and Santino is 4. And they are SO ADORABLE!!

Behold the family!!Collapse )

After eating some pie and after the family left we decided we should leave too. And so we did.

And considering that this entry is getting quite long, I'll basically say that the day after Christmas went well also. Went to my grandma's house and did the whole gift thing - I got lots and lots of socks (SO MANY SOCKS!!!!!) and lots and lots of money, which was good. The food was also excellent, as it always is. We didn't take home any leftovers though, and that makes me sad. I could really go for some of that broccoli cheese stuff... *Drools*

God am I hungry. But I'm waiting for Marcelo to get home from work so we can go out for dinner (AGAIN) because my mom isn't supposed to be home this evening. So I will go and bide my time elsewhere! LaTeR!

5 pieces of mind || speak the truth

Though your nose gets a chillin'... [24 Dec 2004|05:04pm]
[ mood | Christmasy ]

Of all the things I could possibly be doing right now, I'm updating my journal. The house isn't quite clean yet, the food isn't quite ready, and I need to be at church in 15 minutes. But I just couldn't go without saying 'Hello!' to all of you lovely readers!

So, today will be infinitely better than it was last year if for no other reason than the fact that if things continue the way they're going, I'll actually be able to taste my food this year! WOOT!!

Marcelo and I spent part of the morning wrapping, then I got all dolled up and Marcelo and Caitlyn headed to the mall for some last-minute things. I tried to help clean the best I could and can do nothing now but hope for the best.

Auntie and Uncle Joe won't be here this year, because "it's too cold".

Whatever. We'll have fun without them.

I can't wait to show off Christian to the family! :oP

Speaking of Christian, as soon as I have time I HAVE TO scan the pictures of him and Kennedy that we picked up yesterday. Cutest picture ever. Ever!

Well I wish I could say more, but I have to go and figure out what shoes I'm wearing. I'm wearing a skirt that I wanted to wear last year, but it didn't fit. So as much as I say I'm fat, I'm better than I was 365 days ago!

Think positive!

And for now I must bid thee all adieu. I hope your holidays are all wonderful, and for anyone who knows where I live, feel free to stop on by! The house is open for everyone tonight! Like I told Steve last night, you can never come too late!

Wish us luck at church :o/


1 piece of mind || speak the truth

Best cover-up ever... [23 Dec 2004|12:08am]
[ mood | giggly ]

ajdb1985 (11:03:00 PM): thank god you're on, i need to talk to you
WillDriveYou MAD (11:03:06 PM): What's wrong??
ajdb1985 (11:07:29 PM): i was at jewel working today and i heard these 2 guys plotting something against marcelo and you. They said they were going to send these 2 letters to your house so that you receive them within a couple of days. They said that they are both addressed to you, but one is actually for marcelo. I overheard them say that the envelope that is for you has some red mark on it while the one for marcelo is all white. They're doing this to play a horrible trick on you. I had to warn you before you received the 2 envelopes and were confussed
WillDriveYou MAD (11:07:59 PM): Uh, what?
WillDriveYou MAD (11:08:38 PM): That's so weird
WillDriveYou MAD (11:09:54 PM): So should I even open them?
ajdb1985 (11:10:21 PM): yes you have to, just know which one is for who
WillDriveYou MAD (11:11:29 PM): OK
ajdb1985 (11:12:06 PM): those 2 guys looked suspicious so i had to listen in
WillDriveYou MAD (11:12:53 PM): Who WERE these guys?
ajdb1985 (11:13:31 PM): there was this short skinny guy and a tall fat one
WillDriveYou MAD (11:15:29 PM): Hmm.

Tony's so cute! :oP

4 pieces of mind || speak the truth

It's the most wonderful time of the year... [20 Dec 2004|05:43pm]
[ mood | Ecstatic ]


:::Sounds of irrepressable joy:::

And he got a puppy!!

And he wants me to go to Midnight Mass at HIS APARTMENT!!


Everything I was stressing over just got a million times better.

What would I do without him??

1 piece of mind || speak the truth

"OoOo, she's getting creative with bananas!" [15 Dec 2004|07:03pm]
[ mood | blah ]

I've been trying to sit down and update this thing for a few days now but have found it nearly impossible to concentrate enough to get further than the first paragraph. I'm gonna try really hard today, and hopefully I'll get somewhere.

Lately I've really been starting to feel the pressures of the holidays, and of everything else. Last Sunday was one of the longest days I've ever had, having woken up at 5:30 in the morning after only getting 3-4 hours of sleep to go to PAWS and help administer surveys to the people bringing their pets into the spay/neuter clinic. We had been there from 11:00-5:00 the day before also, so we were given an idea of what we would be doing. The purpose was to find out who is going to the clinic - What ethnicity they are, how much money they make, etc. We got 17 surveys, which was actually pretty good. We left there at 8:30 and had to be at Youth Ministry at 11:00 to practice Christmas Eve music. The only people there were me, Marcelo, Jackie and Kathy, which is total bullshit. While I don't think that it's right for Kathy and Janet to basically force people to sing or participate in singing when they're not comfortable with it, if that's the decision then everyone should be in it together. No one wants to come for practice, but I'd bet my life that EVERYONE shows up this weekend for the Christmas party, because there'll be food. It's pathetic. And if no one else says anything about it, then I will.

Aside from volunteer work, we've also been incredibly busy with doing work in the basement. There have been INCREDIBLE amounts of progress made, and I still can't believe it's actually getting somewhere. Everything in what will now be the living room has been completely knocked down and thrown out. The couch, the rug, the work benches, the storage cabinets - Everything. And the same thing with what is the bedroom. The walls are painted, the carpet is down, there's a real window there with blinds... it's so awesome.
The work in progressCollapse )

We've also been trying to clean the house so that we can put up Christmas decorations. Mom gave us a list of all of the things that need to be done in the house, and it seems nearly impossible. She originally wanted us to clean the back porch, but we refused. There is way too much stuff there that we have no idea what to do with. So we decided we'd clean the rest of the house as long as Mom takes care of the porch. We cleaned the kitchen today and that was good. We'll clean one room a day so as not to get overwhelmed or die from all the dust. It'll get done, it always does.

Last night Marcelo and I watched How The Grinch Stole Christmas. The Dr.Seuss version, not the fucked up Jim Carey version. Marcelo had never seen it before. He liked it. It was nice.

Jennifer informed me today that they posted the books we'll need for next semester online. I need one book for Math, one book for Human Sexuality, and like, 6 books/"reading materials" for Religion. I have no idea what I need for Philosophy yet, and I hope to God it doesn't end up like my English class did this semester where I didn't have my books for a good 3 weeks or so. Without needing anything for Philosophy, AND buying everything used, my total comes to roughly $160, is pretty steep, but it could be worse.



Oh, by the way, Penny Arcade is an awesome comic, even though I know jack shit about games. I hope Tycho and Gabe aren't dead...

Well, unfortunately for me my attention span has come to its end, so I fear I must go. So, here are some closing thoughts:

It'll be cool. Join it!!

CHRISTIAN!!Collapse )

Oh, and here's a quiz. A rather accurate quiz at that!

You Are a Visionary Soul

You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness.
Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connect to your soul.
You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable.
Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings.

You have great vision and can be very insightful.
In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself.
Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend.
You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer.

Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul

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"Cleopatra just SO was NOT the type of person to kill herself..." [06 Dec 2004|06:46pm]
[ mood | good ]

So, the past weekend was very busy. And I liked it.

Let's start with Friday.

I don't remember anything of what happened during the day on Friday, but it doesn't matter because I didn't do anything until the evening. After I showered and put my contacts in and got dressed (and looked very cute, actually) and fixed my hair I had Mom drive me over to Northside. It was the choir concert, and though I was originally supposed to meet Wellman there early, I ended up being pretty much on-time for the show.

It was strange walking into the building and not really recognizing anyone. It made me sad, and for a few minutes I felt like a complete stranger walking into a place I'd never seen before. That changed, though, when I saw Aubrey. She was, of course, talking to Avi. She didn't recognize me at first because of my hair and because I was wearing contacts, but when she did I got a big hug and many questions about my lip ring. She and I went into the choir room where everyone was singing 'Goin' Up Yonder' with Wellman, who decided to give them a pep-talk and warm them up. I was standing right between Aubrey and Dennis and got a big hug from Wellington and I felt right back at home again. Dennis told me my lip ring looked cute on me, and Wellington asked me if anyone had stolen my ass. That made me ridiculously happy.

When I got into the theater I sat on the floor next to Wellman (who, naturally, wouldn't give me his seat). He and I did nothing the entire time except either make fun of the new choir conductor or cringe at the awfulness of the choirs. Every single choir was terrible - Beginning and Advanced. Wellman said that they would be, gathering that after talking to some members about it. It was sad, really. Since Ms.Rivera is Puerto Rican, of course nearly every single song sang that night was in Spanish. All of the alto and sopranos had been nonsensically switched around, leaving Aubrey and Lydia as the only 2 capable sopranos out of the 4 that there are. The altos couldn't even be heard. It was, as Wellman put it, "absolutely shameful".

After the concert Wellman had a little meeting with everyone, telling them that they could be doing SO much better if given the opportunity. He said that he wants to make a youth choir at a church somewhere near Northside so that they can live up to their potential. I think that would be an excellent thing to do, and if it ever happened I would definitely join. But yes, Marcelo was let off of work early and got to Northside around 8:30 to pick me up. That was a nice surprise. He got to talk to Mr.Lill for a while, so he was happy about that. He and I left and decided to try our luck at Zephyr's because I had such a taste for their ice cream. Surprisingly enough they let us in with no problems, so I got soup and dessert and I was happy.

And before I end Friday's update, here are some picturesCollapse )

Now onto Saturday!

Saturday was a fantastic day. We woke up early because Uncle Stevie and Richie were here to help throw out the loveseat and do anything else that Mom could think of to have them do. The only thing they did while we were still home indeed take out the loveseat.

And here is a picture of themCollapse )

Anyway, Scott and Rusty also came over in the morning to work in the basement. The first thing they did was take the window out of the room and put a brand new one in - One that can actually be opened. It was crazy, we were able to talk right through the hole where the window should have been before the window was installed. With all of that stuff going on at the house, Mom decided to stay home instead of coming with us to pick up the puppy. Marcelo, Caitlyn and I left at 12:00 to pick up Auntie Gina, and we headed out to get my baby!!

When we got there he was outside with Kristi. We all went inside where we saw his mom, Ceilidh (pronounced Kaylee), and only three of his siblings. Apparently all of the other puppies had been picked up earlier that day, so Kristi was a bit sad. Her son, Kevin, was also sad, because Christian had been his favorite puppy. I felt kind of bad about that, but they are keeping one of the puppies, so it's not like he wasn't gonna have a puppy to play with at all. Anywho, I went over the contract with Kristi while Marcelo played with Ceilidh and Cait and Auntie Gina played with the other puppies. Kristi gave me a folder with all of his papers in it - A copy of the contract, Ceilidh and Spunky's (the dad's) eye and hip checks, their AKC papers, a temperment test they administered to him, and his health record. She also gave me a heartworm pill.

On our way out we got to see Dodge as well as the funny-purring cat, whose name I now know is Sasha. Kristi was sad to see Christian go, and asked if we could keep her updated on how he's doing and send pictures. That is, of course, what I intended to do anyway.

He whined a bit on the way home, but for a little puppy an hour is a long ride. Auntie Gina wanted to take him to church to be blessed by Father Mike, but he was out to dinner. Once we got him home he was a little nervous and wary of the dogs and the kittens, but he adjusted pretty well. We took him with us to the petstore to get him food, and he was a good boy. He cried at night in his crate, but overall his technical first day was a good one for him.

PICTURES!!!Collapse )

And now - SUNDAY!

Yesterday was also a fairly good day. Marcelo and I had to be at church at 11:00 to practice for the noon mass. The mass was... well, not as bad as it's been, but still not very good. We had a youth ministry meeting after the mass, for which only 5 of us showed up - Me, Marcelo, Angela, Laura and Jackie. We were going over the music for the 6:00 Christmas Eve mass, which is nice and festive. Kathy tried to teach Angela the descant and me the harmony, and the whole time Laura was just sitting there rolling her eyes and not participating at all. She kept complaining about how she didn't want to sing anymore, and so I finally told her to just stop complaining and go home. I fucking hate when people do that. If you don't want to be somewhere, and no one is physically forcing you to do so, and you can't be even at the very least respectful, then do everyone else a favor and leave.

After youth ministry Marcelo went Christmas browsing while my mom and I went out Christmas tree hunting. We first went to the K-Mart by the HIP, then to Menards, and then to the K-Mart on Cicero. There were unfortunately not a whole lot of options in terms of trees, but we finally found one we liked. We also picked up some other decorative things, such as shatter-proof ornaments, Christmas cards, and spray-snow. I'm VERY excited to start decorating next weekend. It should all turn out beautifully.

And that brings us to today. The only things I've done today are take Christian to the vet with Marcelo and updated this journal. The vet said that he's very healthy, except that one of his testicles hasn't dropped yet. He said if it doesn't drop by the time he's 4 months old, then it won't drop, and I'll have to get him neutered. We plan on neutering him anyway, so hopefully there isn't any other problem with that. I should probably email Kristi just to let her know that he's healthy and happy.

I should also put this update to rest. Marcelo should be home soon and he and I are... well, I'm not sure what we're doing, but we're doing something relaxing and fun. Tomorrow Jen and Angela are supposed to come over and help us clean the basement, so we'll see how that goes. So update LaTeR!!

2 pieces of mind || speak the truth

All alone, in my room, wishin' that you were here... [02 Dec 2004|06:29pm]
[ mood | lonely ]

I'm lonely.

And sad.

And no one cares.


I hate this.

4 pieces of mind || speak the truth

Everyone loves a clown... [02 Dec 2004|12:10am]
[ mood | Happier than a minute ago ]

In only two days, he's mine.

2 pieces of mind || speak the truth

Don't lie to yourselves, it gives you pleasure.... [01 Dec 2004|11:59pm]
[ mood | sad ]

Some things you know, and some you didn'tCollapse )

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There may come a time when a lass needs a lawyer... [29 Nov 2004|06:15pm]
[ mood | busy ]

So it's my first real day of break (meaning it's a Monday starting off a fresh new week of absolutely no school) and I'm sitting here nice and cozy listening to my Moulin Rouge soundtrack and updating my journal.

I couldn't think of anything that could make it better right now.

Actually, I could have some hot chocolate, and I could have my puppy sleeping on my bed, but I can't always have everything.

So, my weekend consisted of two things - Getting Marcelo's car and making gingerbread cookies. The car is a black, manual '88 Nissan Sentra, with a shitty body and an excellent engine. Except for the fact that is has trouble starting because he was given a bad key, it runs very well. Hopefully it'll last longer than his last two cars have...

Oh, once we had the car, we had to go to the pet store to get Lars another waterbottle (there was a nice hole in his), and while we were there I signed up to get Christmas pictures of the pets taken. I'm not sure who's going to be included other than Christian, but I have until December 12 to figure that out.

We went to my grandma's on both Saturday and Sunday attempting to make gingerbread cookies. On Saturday, the cookies we made were made with self-rising flour, which has salt in it. Caitlyn and I knew that it didn't taste right when it was only dough, but we figured we'd give it a try and see how they came out. They came out terribly. I couldn't even make myself eat an entire cookie. That night Marcelo and I went out to get NORMAL flour and some more butter and went back on Sunday to make them the right way. They came out excellently, better than I expected them to come out, in fact! I ate more of the dough than the actual cookies, but that's the way I've always done it. We're planning on making more cookies when it's closer to Christmas using actual Christmas cookie cutters, like we always do. This is the first step in getting ready for the holiday season!

Speaking of the holiday season, there are so many things that I need to do! Right now I'm alternating between updating and writing out a Christmas list. I'm actually having a really hard time thinking of things that I want (shocking, isn't it?). Most things I want aren't really physical things - I moreso want to go and do things. But I'm putting down everything and anything I can think of. Perhaps I will post it incase anyone is looking for ideas....

I definitely need to get a move on decorating my room. Something tells me that putting up those icecicle lights isn't going to be an easy task. We also need to put up decorations on the outside of the house as well as the rest of the inside. I can't wait to put out the snowmen we bought at the craft fair, as well as my little porcelain fiberoptic tree.

Speaking of trees, Mom said that we'd be buying a new tree this year, and since I no longer have school that means that she and I can go shopping for the perfect tree even if it takes up an entire day. I'll have to ask her about when we're doing that, exactly. I also want to write out Christmas Eve invitations (which I'll do as soon as Mom gets home... assuming it's before midnight...) and Christmas cards. It's a little too early for the cards, but I want to buy plain ones and decorate them like a did a few years ago (when the glitter fell off in the envelopes right around the time of the anthrax scare..). I just may have to ask everyone for their addresses, though, because I honestly don't think I know very many. That's sad, isn't it? How dependent people are on the phone and the Internet. But that's how it goes!

Anyway, moving onto a completely different subject, I get to pick up Christian in only 4 days! We're either going early Saturday morning or waiting until my aunt gets off of work at 1:00 so she can come too. I'm so excited, I can't wait that long!! But in the meantime I've been looking up places to take him for obedience training and I think I've decided on the Anti-Cruelty Society (that is, unless someone wants to pay for more expensive training for Christmas). They have classes in several different levels, and after you've completed one class you get discounts for every other level you complete there. The puppy class is $80 for 7 weeks, which is an excellent deal. I also really, really want to volunteer there, because they have really awesome volunteer opportunities. They unfortunately don't have any job opportunities listed, but maybe once I get my foot in the door by volunteering I can move up the ladder a bit.

Oh, before I forget (I've had these for a LONG time), here are some quizzes!

You Are Medium Maintenance

You aren't as hard to deal with as some girls

But you aren't the most laid back chick either

You're easy to deal with 90% of the time, but watch out for that 10%!

If the guy you are with has good intentions, then calm down a little

But if he's really screwing up, don't waste your breath - move on :-)

Are You High Maintenance? Take This Quiz :-)

Find the Love of Your Life
(and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

Your Dream Engagement Ring Has a Heart Diamond!

You wear your heart on your sleeve, so of course you should also wear it on your ring.

A heart diamond is the perfect choice for highlighting your passionate disposition.

Only a true romantic can get away with wearing this ring. Luckily, that's you.

And only a true romantic can give you this ring, so make sure you find him...!

What's Your Dream Engagement Ring? Take This Quiz :-)

Find the Love of Your Life
(and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

Your Inner Eye Color Is Brown

You're smart, thoughtful, and the ideal woman for most men

You are kind and easy to trust. Men open up to you like no one else.

It's this inner warmness that attracts guys - and makes you an instant soulmate.

What's Your Inner Eye Color? Take This Quiz :-)

Find the Love of Your Life
(and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

You Are From Mercury

You are talkative, clever, and knowledgeable - and it shows.
You probably never leave home without your cell phone!
You're witty, expressive, and aware of everything going on around you.
You love learning, playing, and taking in all of what life has to offer.
Be careful not to talk your friends' ears off, and temper your need to know everything.

Well, currently I have a headache from sitting in the dark listening to my music, and I have a headache from sitting in the dark, so I'm gonna end this update. I'm gonna ask my mom for those invitations now and just relax and try to feel better. And, of course, wait for Marcelo to come home so we can play The Sims! Talk to everyone LaTeR!
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It has my Seal of Approval! [27 Nov 2004|11:27pm]
[ mood | artistic ]

I used to love to draw dogs when I was younger, and I was pretty damn good at it at the time, and something prompted me to do it the other day, and since we have Marcelo's scanner, I scanned it.

I think it's quite nice, considering I'm very out of practice and had nothing to copy from.
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"She did it, she did it, the dumb kid really did it!!" [26 Nov 2004|07:26pm]
[ mood | Alright ]

Well, as far as radio stations and malls are concerned, the holidays have officially started!

It's a little too early for me, personally, since I don't usually start really doing Christmas things until about the 10th, but it's nice to start to get into the spirit.

There wasn't a whole lot of spirit yesterday, though. My day unfortunately didn't go as well as I had hoped it would. We went to my grandma's house this year instead of my aunt's house like we've done every year since I was born, which was strange. Once I got past the akwardness of that, I had more akwardness thrown at me because I ate Thanksgiving dinner on a TV tray. There was no room in the apartment for a dining room table... or a dining room.

And, instead of playing a boardgame or cards as we usually do, we sat in front of the television the whole time watching bad movies. And the worst part about it was that no one but me seemed to give a damn. I mean, Marcelo was being sympathetic and understood where I was coming from, but he hasn't been in my family for the last 18 years to know exactly how different yesterday was. I really, really hope Christmas goes better than that.

So as I said yesterday, I meant to talk about what's being going on the rest of this week, so I'll do that now.

Wednesday was an awesome day. Marcelo and I went to the mall in the morning to pick up his contacts and the ring that he got me for our anniversary that we had resized. The ring is so pretty - a real emerald with little diamonds - and now that it's sized I can wear it and flaunt it and love it! Here, I'll show you a picture, because I have one.

My Ring!Collapse )

After we picked up what we needed we sat and had lunch in the food court. Marcelo told me that the woman working at Tom & Jerry's was flirting with him, because she kept staring at him and when she gave him his change, she rubbed his hand much more than necessary. That pissed me off, but when I looked at her she was quite fat and quite ugly, so I wasn't overly worried.

On the way back to the bus we saw that the rain/snow that came down on us on our way to the mall had changed into normal, beautiful fluffy snow! I was ridiculously excited, and my excitement only grew as the way went on because it continued to snow. And, because I have them, here are some pictures.

First Snow Of The Year!Collapse )

It looked so pretty. It's a shame it's all melted now, but I know there will be more eventually.

When my mom got home Wednesday night she and I went shopping, originally for boots for me. We ended up not going shoe shopping but went to Old Navy and bought me lots of stuff instead. I got a couple cute sweaters, a pair of jeans, a pair of dress pants, some tanktops and a cardigan sweater, and a "graphic tee". We also got some stuff for Marcelo, like some thermal shirts and a nice big warm coat. Now he won't have to freeze to death at work, poor thing.

And now I'm jumping right past yesterday, since I went through it already, and onto today!

This morning I woke up at 8:00 to go to the doctor. This is the second bladder infection I've had in the last 3 months, and it's really kind of irritating. I hope I'm not one of those people who are prone to urinary infections, because that would really, really suck. I have medicine for it now though, so hopefully it won't be a problem for much longer.

After the doctor we went to shop for shoes. We went to Shoe Carnival and were surprised to see that people from KissFM were there. That definitely made the shopping experience a little more interesting. They were giving away prizes to people who could answer trivia questions and right before we left they gave away a Gamecube. We didn't get it. But I ended up buying a pair of dressy-casual shoes (shoes that are good to wear with dress pants that aren't all stiletto and pointy and retarded) as well as a pair of suede boots. I LOVE the boots. I've never owner a pair of boots in my life, so it's about time. I also bought stuff to spray on them so they're water-resistant. I'm happy.

We went to lunch at Denny's after that because we were hungry and it was close by. We got mozzarella sticks and buffalo chicken strips as appetizers but I got a Belgian waffle. Not a bad combination, actually. When we finished lunch we went to change Marcelo's check so he could pay his friend Oscar for the car he's buying from him, and then drove him to work.

And from there, well, I've done absolutely nothing. I was supposed to go out with Monique, Jen and Angela, but they didn't end up doing anything. Maybe it was better that way, because I didn't really feel very well anyway. My eyes were burning and tearing like crazy for no reason, and I had a really bad headache. I was also frustrated at the fact that my cable wouldn't turn on, and that when it finally did, America's Next Top Model wasn't on anyway. But I think I can manage to let that go.

Well right now Marcelo is home and we're gonna go eat pizza and play The Sims 2, so I'm outa here. G'nite!

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"We can't do it, Ed, they're too cute!" [25 Nov 2004|02:21pm]
[ mood | hungry ]


I hope everyone's dinner is tasty and that everyone's family behaves at least somewhat normally.

I would love to elaborate on how I've been lately, but I don't really have the time. I have to blowdry my hair, grab some boardgames, and head over to my grandma's. We were supposed to be there at 3:00, but it's looking more like 4:00. It doesn't matter though, because they only live down the alley from us now.

I will say, however, that IT SNOWED YESTERDAY!!!!


I took some pictures of it, I was so excited. I'll post those later.

So yes, have a nice day everyone! Update LaTeR!

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WOOHOO! WAHOO!! ::Fireworks:: [23 Nov 2004|10:48am]
[ mood | refreshed ]

Christmas break has officially started!!!

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"I didn't mean to kill her, it's just that he was on fire..." [19 Nov 2004|07:55pm]
[ mood | Pretty Good ]

Yesterday was horrible.

I was arguing with him and he had a horrible asthma attack. I, the horrible person that I am, thought he was exaggerating or bullshitting. But it turned out he needed to go to the emergency room. I sat and watched Passions on the TV in the waiting area because my mom went in with him, but I wasn't even really watching. I felt more guilty than I'd ever felt in my life. Though the doctors determined that he hasn't been taking care of his asthma properly, if I hadn't have aggrevated him it wouldn't have been an issue.

I went back to see him and he was in a hospital gown in a bed hooked up to electrodes. It made me cry seeing him like that, because even though he was alright I couldn't help but imagine what it would be like if he wasn't alright. I don't ever want to see him that way again, nor do I ever want to experience that myself.

I love him so much, I can't stand the thought of losing him...

But I'll try to keep my mind off of that.

After we got back from the hospital we stayed in my room for quite some time just being with each other. We decided to go across the street to my neighbor Dan's house because he's on vacation for the next 2 weeks to take advantage of his big screen TV. We watched some TV, played a board game while eating Chinese food, and attempted to delete some viruses off of Dan's computer (which was only partially successful). We came home around 9:30 and played The Sims 2 for about 3 hours before we got tired and went to sleep. I felt terrible about not being able to call Steve, but making sure Marcelo was OK was much more important.

I was supposed to wake up early this morning so I could shower and study for my math final before heading to school at 1:15, though that didn't work out. I didn't wake up until about 10:30, and after eating something and studying I only had time to get dressed and head to class. Marcelo took the bus with me to the Brown Line station, even though that put him at work really early. That was really sweet of him, especially considering that he's been trying to find some time for himself for the last week.

I actually got to school around 2:15, thinking I was half an hour early. When I walked in the classroom, however, there were 4 other people in the room already taking their tests. The test took me about an hour and a half, despite the fact that there were only 17 problems and 5 extra credit problems. Now one problem asked to solve a system of equations. I worked on this problem for about 20 minutes, trying like hell to get an answer. Eventually I decided that it must have been written wrong and that there was no solution. After the test I was sitting talking to some other people from class who were all discussing the test, and we were all bitching about this same problem. Eventually a guy comes out of the classroom saying "IT'S UNSOLVABLE!! I ASKED HIM!!"

That made me happy, especially considering that I had been arguing with someone for a good 10 minutes about the impossibility of their answer. But at this point, the test is done, the class is done, and I can't change a damn thing. So we'll just have to wait and see how I did.

Well, despite the fact that I'm watching The Wizard of Oz on TBS (and realizing how cheesy of a movie it really is), I have to go. I'm going with my mom to pick up Marcelo. My uncle Carl and uncle Basil are at Auntie Gina's house tonight, so I don't know if I'm going over there or not. But I do know that when we do come home, Marcelo and I plan on playing more Sims.

Yes, we're nerds.

Tomorrow is going to be a busy day. Uncle Stevie and his friends are coming over to either work on the fence or work on the basement, and they'll be here around 9:30. Marcelo and I are supposed to go to the mall to do some things too, but we'll see about that.

But for now, the wicked witch is dead, and I must go. LaTeR!

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::: Dyslexic runs to the phone ::: [17 Nov 2004|08:08pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]

We're gonna do things a little differently this time.

Introducing... THE BULLET POINT!

So, you wanna know how my day has been? Well I'll tell you!

♥ Marcelo and I cleaned Lars's cage today, so I guess I did something productive.

♥ I emailed all of the other Border Collie breeders I had been in contact with to tell them that I've already found a puppy, so that's out of the way.

♥ I went with my mom to Smyser to pick up Caitlyn's report card. I talked to Ms.Foreman, and she was actually being a normal human being. That was absolutely shocking.

♥ I emailed Steve today and he emailed me back! He gave me the number to his room, and I'm supposed to call him tomorrow at 7:00. That makes me giggle like a little girl. It's sad, but makes me so happy.

♥ Nicole got voted off of America's Next Top Model. Yaya is still there. That makes me sad, and pissed, and sadder, and more pissed.

♥ People who mix prescription medication with alcohol, enough alcohol to make them vomit, are complete and utter idiots, and I really, really want nothing to do with them, because I respect myself.

♥ I realized that Clive Owen is a relatively attractive man, but in a way that I can't explain. It's strange.

♥ I'm watching a show in SciFi called Ghost Hunters. It's good stuff.

And now, I'm off to pick up Marcelo.

When we return - Baked mostaccioli and The Sims!


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Made in The Sudan [13 Nov 2004|10:09pm]
[ mood | cold ]

You know what's interesting?

Just a few minutes ago Marcelo and I were reading through my oldest livejournal entries, and my 'voice' has changed incredibly. Back then I still dropped the last letter off of words to create words like "takin'". I also had a mouth like a sailor, something that Marcelo calls "Old-school mode". I guess I just couldn't articulate myself as well as I can now. Either that or I didn't give a damn.

But anyway, last night was one of the best nights that I've ever had. Marcelo and I just.... bonded. There was a lot of crying, a lot of smiling, and a lot of understanding. And we danced, and he held me until 2:30 in the morning when I eventually fell asleep. It was indescribable. I'm not sure what will ever be able to compare to it. I'm so lucky to have him. He always knows what to say...

But I don't want to talk about sad things nor do I want to jinx amazing things, so I'll move on to the events of today.

Today my mom, Marcelo and I all went out to Valparaiso, Indiana to check out some Border Collie puppies (the ones I posted pictures of about 3 entries ago). The breeder, Kristi, led us into the back room of her house, which is heated by an old stove, and let us meet the puppies. There are 9 of them, one month old. We met their mother, a very pretty, extremely well-trained 3 year old. Marcelo spent most of his time playing with her. There were three puppies that I had to choose from - The female with the mostly black face, the female with the all white face, and the male. I had already decided that I didn't want the female with the white face, so I held and played with both the male and other female. As soon as I held the male I knew that there was something about him I liked, and I knew that I wanted to take him. After the last experience with the Corgi, I told myself ahead of time that I would go with whatever puppy I felt that I had a connection with, no matter what anyone else thought.

So I chose him. He's completely paid for, I get to pick him up on December 4, and Kristi will begin calling him by his name - Christian.

Incase you forgot what he looks likeCollapse )

Mom thinks he looks like "a rat", but I don't give a damn what she thinks. He's a BIG puppy, much bigger than he is in that picture, and I'm hoping he doesn't get TOO big, but even if he does, I'll love him anyway.

After we paid for him and I put him back Kristi took us in back of her house to see her horses. Yes, she has horses, 5 of them to be exact. Though it will soon be 6, because her black mare is pregnant. Marcelo had never seen a horse up close before, so he was very impressed. We pet some of her pet chickens, and her outdoor cats (one of which had the strangest purr/meow I've ever heard), and her pet goat, Dodge. I love goats (strange, I know), so that was a nice little treat. We decided that when we grow up and move to Michigan we want to have as much land as she does to be able to have animals just roaming the property the way she does. But, in the meantime, we've been invited to come back when it's warm to bring Christian to play and to receive horseback riding lessons. Mom said that that would definitely happen, and that we could even take Christian and stay with Nathan and his family for the weekend we're going up there. I'm looking very much forward to it, because I really, really like Kristi.

Nice to know that not every dog breeder is a neurotic bitch....

After we left her house we went to Red Lobster for dinner, then to Dairy Queen, then home to watch Mad TV. And now I'm sitting here, watching Who Wants To Be a Millionaire on the Gameshow Network, finishing this update.

Tomorrow I'm getting my eyebrows done if I have to rob a bank to pay for it, and after that we're going to Marcelo's parents house for dinner. I hope it all goes well. But for now I just want to spend time with my baby, so I'm gonna go. Update with the events of tomorrow LaTeR!

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